Roller Coaster

Today has been one of those roller coaster kind of days...but I think I hit more drops than hills.

I think most of it stemmed from not sleeping well last night. Daniel has a bad cough and I was up for a total of 3 hours with him through out the night. When he's still tired and doesn't feel good he fights me. He kept kicking me in the stomach and trying to rip my glasses off. I know that if I just lay there with my arms wrapped around him long enough he will calm down and drift back to sleep, but it sure is hard when I'm so tired! Last night he would drift off and then start coughing and wake himself back up. I let him stay with me from 5:00 until we got up at 7:00. He woke up by sitting straight up and chattering at me with a big smile. Um...child, did you forget you were up half the night!? Don't get me wrong, that smile melts my heart every time, I just didn't expect him to be that chipper!

Due to my very interrupted night of sleep, my patience was lacking. You could say I had a "fuzz worth of patience"...only a few of you will get that! Daniel was testing me as I was trying to get us ready to head out the door. He kept taking his socks and shoes off and then I'd get those back on and he'd yank his hat off! We finally got out the door, already running behind and of course got stuck due to construction...but I still clocked right at 9! Yay!

The kiddos drove me crazy too. So much tattling and too many questions! I was very ready for 11:15. On the plus side I got my first paycheck!

Then we had to grocery shop. I had ZERO desire to do so. I sucked it up though and got it done.

By the time we got home it was almost 1:00 so I fed Daniel as I put the groceries away and then got him down for a nap.

Got some laundry started and then began an hour long ordeal with the insurance company about getting a nebulizer for Daniel to have breathing treatments. I thought it was all figured out, but I was wrong. I had some problems when I went to get it for him. I was so ready to just burst into tears, but I kept calm. I can't really go into here, but I just want to say that there are some really good people left in this world and I received the best customer service ever! It was a bright spot in my day and I was so thankful. Then I went and picked up the albuterol and came home to give Daniel his first treatment.

He of course hated it. He screamed and cried...but what he doesn't know is that crying actually helps the medicine work better because they inhale it better. Sneaky, sneaky. Although, I'm not looking forward to doing it 3 times a day for the next week!

Tonight we watched our Thursday night shows and Daniel was asleep by 7:30. Hopefully we have a better night.

I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow. Whenever I start a day off on the wrong foot, I tend to see all of the negative and think that way too. I feel like the world is out to get me. All I could think of were all of the things I need to get done. When I look at my house on days like this all I see is the mess. I see everything that needs cleaned and then I feel overwhelmed.

Hopefully I can check a few things off my list tomorrow and then I have all day Saturday too. I am excited to make Daniel's first birthday cake. I was a little down about that this week too. Not the cake. We invited Jacob's parents over of course and then a few friends, but it looks like it'll probably just be Grandma and Grandpa. I know it's silly and that it shouldn't matter, but I just felt friendless. It just reminded me again how few friends that I have here. I guess to put a positive spin on it...more cake for me. :) Yeah. Lame.

Anyway...I better quit typing and go to bed. I'm praying my sweet boy sleeps well tonight and feels better soon.