I made it! Well, almost. I blogged 27 times this month I believe.
I'm ready to put November behind for now. It was a month of ups and downs. It feels like ages ago that we celebrated James' birthday and that Daniel and Jacob were in a car accident. Celebrating Daniel's birthday and Thanksgiving in Iowa were both very fun too!
Today was just kind of a lazy day. Yesterday I did quite a bit, so today I chilled with James and did a few small things around the house. At lunch time he wouldn't finish his food and I told him no dessert. I went in the kitchen to wash the dishes and he started having a huge tantrum. I told him he could get down, but he didn't want too. I decided it was nap time right about then! He fell asleep really fast, which is odd, but I figured the crying had worn him out.
I woke him up to go get Daniel from school and he just kept laying there until I had to pick him up out of bed and carry him to the living room. I was singing along to the radio while we were driving and it seems awfully quiet. He was asleep again! WHAT!? That never happens.
Once we got home he curled up in the recliner and wouldn't let me take off his hat, coat or shoes. He eventually came over to snuggle with me and we got the hat off. Around 3:50 I told him I had to go to my appointment. He was upset but then seemed okay. I was writing a list quickly to grab some stuff at Walmart, when he comes into the dining room looking for me and I looked up just in time to see the puke flying. Puke on the carpet, his coat and his shoes! I got it cleaned up while Jacob helped James. Ran down to start laundry and then headed out the door for physical therapy!
Thank goodness the place I go for PT is literally 2 minutes from our house!
PT was good today. Did a lot of stretches and exercises to help strengthen. Had some heat therapy and then a bit of massage therapy. I was feeling pretty good when I left, although still some twinges of pain. Plus one of the exercises kept giving me charlie horses in my hip/leg.
I didn't get to Walmart until almost 5:30, but got what I needed...until I remember something else I needed and then forgot about. I'm on day 2 of my new eating habits. I finally bit the bullet and am trying something I swore I couldn't do. I'm going low carb. Not like, extreme Keto, but trying to see if it helps. Also, I started drinking green tea. It's actually not too bad! (I can only drink it cold though. Not a big fan of hot drinks).
Got home and took a shower because I felt gross. Got the boys to bed and then finished up working on the advent calendar. Let the fun (and probably stress because this is me we're talking about), begin!
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Wednesday, November 29, 2017
Thought Provoking Questions
I couldn't think of anything in particular to write about tonight, so I looked up through provoking questions and figured this could be fun.
You're all going to laugh at me for this because you probably know what's coming. Make sure that your children and you yourself are properly restrained in the car. So many preventable deaths and injuries occur because people won't wear a seat belt or take the time to make sure that their child's car seat is installed properly and that they are restrained correctly.
To be 30 pounds lighter in the blink of an eye. Or a Blizzard from DQ, but that just seems counter productive.
Because we take people for granted. We put other priorities in front of them, and then one day they're gone and you wish that you had more time with them. I lost my grandpa 5 years ago and I think of him often. Little things will remind me of him.
I'm a Jesus loving, thoughtful, kindhearted (although sometimes sarcastic and sassy), socially awkward kinda girl.
Oh heck no! I'm a planner. I like to know what's coming up and countdown to fun events. If I knew when I was going to die, that's all I would think about. I'd worry I wouldn't get everything done in time. Ha!
I honestly don't know. I think I'd have to be placed in that situation to know. For my kids though? I'd save them without a doubt.
Normally I'd say that I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up...and that's still true. But more than that, rather than searching, I'm waiting. Waiting for God to show me where He can use me the most.
Food. Specifically, all the bad ones that I put into my body on a daily basis.
Speak up!
You're all going to laugh at me for this because you probably know what's coming. Make sure that your children and you yourself are properly restrained in the car. So many preventable deaths and injuries occur because people won't wear a seat belt or take the time to make sure that their child's car seat is installed properly and that they are restrained correctly.
To be 30 pounds lighter in the blink of an eye. Or a Blizzard from DQ, but that just seems counter productive.
Because we take people for granted. We put other priorities in front of them, and then one day they're gone and you wish that you had more time with them. I lost my grandpa 5 years ago and I think of him often. Little things will remind me of him.
I'm a Jesus loving, thoughtful, kindhearted (although sometimes sarcastic and sassy), socially awkward kinda girl.
Oh heck no! I'm a planner. I like to know what's coming up and countdown to fun events. If I knew when I was going to die, that's all I would think about. I'd worry I wouldn't get everything done in time. Ha!
I honestly don't know. I think I'd have to be placed in that situation to know. For my kids though? I'd save them without a doubt.
Normally I'd say that I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up...and that's still true. But more than that, rather than searching, I'm waiting. Waiting for God to show me where He can use me the most.
Food. Specifically, all the bad ones that I put into my body on a daily basis.
Speak up!
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
A Fresh Start
If I type it here, it has to be true, right?
I battle with binge eating. I love me some carbs and sugar and when I slack off from a diet or exercise, I immediately start eating. It gets worse and worse until I hit my breaking point and start all over again.
It's a vicious cycle, and I joke about it to cope. I know it seems easy enough. Just don't eat. But it's a true addiction and unlike alcohol or drugs, there's no way to just NOT eat. Yes. I can eat healthier, but as soon as I see that "bad" food tempting me I want it.
I lie to myself when I binge. I tell myself that I'll start over tomorrow...for 4 months straight.
I say that I'll only have a handful of peanut butter M&M's, but I'll eat half a bag. Ice cream? Yeah, I could sit and eat that all day every day. I'll tell myself I don't need to get on the scale because if I don't, I don't have to fully face the reality that I'm gaining weight. I "wonder" why my clothes don't fit? Surely they just shrunk. Every single piece shrunk...that seems legit, right?
Well, tonight was the night. I was feeling grotesque after chowing down pizza tonight and probably consuming a billion calories, so I faced the music and stepped on the scale. Nothing can prepare you to look down and see the biggest number you've ever weighed. Especially when just 8 months ago you were 20 lbs lighter. I gained over 20 flipping pounds. I guess my theory on my clothes shrinking has been proven wrong.
I literally do this every year. I am a classic yo-yo dieter. If you look at My Fitness Pal, my weight looks like someone climbing up and down mountains for the past several years.
I think it's harder for me to lose weight now than before and that plays a part of why I eat. I eat for comfort. If the weight doesn't move, then I want to eat. I eat because it's something "cheap" I can do for satisfaction. (Although, to be honest it's not all that cheap when you're constantly buying it).
In my 20's I could drop 10 pounds in a few weeks. Now, I'm lucky to lose 1 or 2 and keep it off. It could be a mix of anything. Mostly just my stupidity, but hormones change after having kids. My metabolism is slow. My anxiety meds and birth control could also be adding to weight gain. If I could quit either to see, I would...but it wouldn't be wise.
So...what do I do? How do I motivate myself to do this AGAIN?
Things I've tried in the past include:
Green tea extract in pill form
Hydroxycut (Yeah...I had to try)
Low calorie diet/ counting calories
Positive and encouraging notes to myself around the house.
Reading verses and devotions about it.
Slim Fast
Exercise: weights, bike, swimming, walking
You guys. I get so bored. Why is exercise and healthy eating so addictive to other people and not me? I HATE sweating. Like I have barely any tolerance for it. I'm a super picky eater, so when other people are all, "Yum! Carrots!" "Ooohhh! A kale shake!" Yeah. That makes me want to curl up and die.
My life is basically all carbs. I have to cut back, but reading the lists of food I can eat gives me like 5 foods. (okay...more than that, but not a lot). I get sick of health foods, but for some reason I can eat pizza or tacos every day for weeks on end.
I dislike cooking, so if I can't toss it all in a pan or something and call it a day it probably won't be healthy.
What has worked for you? I know I need to cut back on eating by a ton. I know I need exercise and do plan to get in the pool again within the next couple of weeks depending on how my PT goes and once I get a new swimsuit (Merry Christmas to me!) because we all know there's no way I'm going to squeeze myself into my old suit.
Here's to sticking to this and somehow making it through the Christmas season without over doing it. My mom is starting over too. The weekend of my birthday in April my sisters will both be home and mom wants family pictures taken. I have exactly 5 months from today until my birthday...and need to lose about 30lbs to be comfortable with myself.
Hit me up with your best tips. And just as a disclaimer...ain't no way I'm buying diet crap from a consultant.
I battle with binge eating. I love me some carbs and sugar and when I slack off from a diet or exercise, I immediately start eating. It gets worse and worse until I hit my breaking point and start all over again.
It's a vicious cycle, and I joke about it to cope. I know it seems easy enough. Just don't eat. But it's a true addiction and unlike alcohol or drugs, there's no way to just NOT eat. Yes. I can eat healthier, but as soon as I see that "bad" food tempting me I want it.
I lie to myself when I binge. I tell myself that I'll start over tomorrow...for 4 months straight.
I say that I'll only have a handful of peanut butter M&M's, but I'll eat half a bag. Ice cream? Yeah, I could sit and eat that all day every day. I'll tell myself I don't need to get on the scale because if I don't, I don't have to fully face the reality that I'm gaining weight. I "wonder" why my clothes don't fit? Surely they just shrunk. Every single piece shrunk...that seems legit, right?
Well, tonight was the night. I was feeling grotesque after chowing down pizza tonight and probably consuming a billion calories, so I faced the music and stepped on the scale. Nothing can prepare you to look down and see the biggest number you've ever weighed. Especially when just 8 months ago you were 20 lbs lighter. I gained over 20 flipping pounds. I guess my theory on my clothes shrinking has been proven wrong.
I literally do this every year. I am a classic yo-yo dieter. If you look at My Fitness Pal, my weight looks like someone climbing up and down mountains for the past several years.
I think it's harder for me to lose weight now than before and that plays a part of why I eat. I eat for comfort. If the weight doesn't move, then I want to eat. I eat because it's something "cheap" I can do for satisfaction. (Although, to be honest it's not all that cheap when you're constantly buying it).
In my 20's I could drop 10 pounds in a few weeks. Now, I'm lucky to lose 1 or 2 and keep it off. It could be a mix of anything. Mostly just my stupidity, but hormones change after having kids. My metabolism is slow. My anxiety meds and birth control could also be adding to weight gain. If I could quit either to see, I would...but it wouldn't be wise.
So...what do I do? How do I motivate myself to do this AGAIN?
Things I've tried in the past include:
Green tea extract in pill form
Hydroxycut (Yeah...I had to try)
Low calorie diet/ counting calories
Positive and encouraging notes to myself around the house.
Reading verses and devotions about it.
Slim Fast
Exercise: weights, bike, swimming, walking
You guys. I get so bored. Why is exercise and healthy eating so addictive to other people and not me? I HATE sweating. Like I have barely any tolerance for it. I'm a super picky eater, so when other people are all, "Yum! Carrots!" "Ooohhh! A kale shake!" Yeah. That makes me want to curl up and die.
My life is basically all carbs. I have to cut back, but reading the lists of food I can eat gives me like 5 foods. (okay...more than that, but not a lot). I get sick of health foods, but for some reason I can eat pizza or tacos every day for weeks on end.
I dislike cooking, so if I can't toss it all in a pan or something and call it a day it probably won't be healthy.
What has worked for you? I know I need to cut back on eating by a ton. I know I need exercise and do plan to get in the pool again within the next couple of weeks depending on how my PT goes and once I get a new swimsuit (Merry Christmas to me!) because we all know there's no way I'm going to squeeze myself into my old suit.
Here's to sticking to this and somehow making it through the Christmas season without over doing it. My mom is starting over too. The weekend of my birthday in April my sisters will both be home and mom wants family pictures taken. I have exactly 5 months from today until my birthday...and need to lose about 30lbs to be comfortable with myself.
Hit me up with your best tips. And just as a disclaimer...ain't no way I'm buying diet crap from a consultant.
Monday, November 27, 2017
Playing Catch Up
Well, I missed a few posts this month, but I'll try to redeem myself for the end.
We had a fun time in Iowa this past weekend. I try to cherish every moment I get with my Iowa family...plus they sometimes give me a break from the kiddos!
We had Thanksgiving on Friday and finally got to watch Meet Me in St. Louis again.
On Saturday I went on a couple of errands with Kendra and then watched more Hallmark movies. They are so dang cheesy and sometimes almost painful, and yet they're fun to watch!
Yesterday was an interesting one to say the least. James was crying all the way from my parents house until we were getting near the interstate. He wanted his snack that he saw Mimi put in the bag and I said he needed to wait. Well,...I caved because I was driving and couldn't listen to that the whole time! He wolfed them down and was fine until about a half an hour from our lunch stop. 5 miles before our stop he started to fall asleep so Jacob kept him awake. I pulled into McDonald's and just as I opened James' door, it happened. The puke started flowing. On himself, my Kindle, his car seat and the van seat. I sent Jacob in with him to clean him up and get him changed, while Daniel waited patiently for me to do the best I could cleaning up. Thank goodness I threw a couple of towels in the back the day before!
Lunch went fine. He wasn't super hungry but would eat a little here and there.
We got settled back into the van and switched drivers. Jacob said, "$20 says we'll get stuck in traffic due to an accident" (because this has happened 2 times before.
Wouldn't you know. We were getting close to Springfield when one of the signs on the interstate alerted us of an accident ahead. Just about the same place we've gotten stuck before! I told Jacob to pull off at the rest area because I really needed to go and I knew judging by the tail lights we'd be waiting awhile.
As it turned out there were multiple crashes. 3 cars on one side. 2 on the other. Plus some fender benders. While it was frustrating, my mom pointed out to me that maybe God saved us from another accident. If we hadn't been behind schedule due to James getting sick, we could've been the ones in the accident.
We made it home just after 3:30 and Jacob unloaded the van...and then brought the tree up and all of my bins! As I unpacked, Jacob put the tree up. Listening to James squeal with excitement was priceless.
After unpacking, I had to clean out the car seat and de-puke the van. The rest of the night was a whirlwind of stuff, but thankfully James seemed to be fine.
Today, we were back to the daily grind. Dropped Daniel. Went to Kroger. Came home and put stuff away. Started decorating for Christmas. Lunch. And while James napped I decorated the tree. We he got up, he noticed right away it was decorated and started yelling, "It's like Mimi and Pa's Christmas tree!"
We picked Daniel up and went to the park for an hour. A 64 degree day always means fresh air! We even found 2 painted rocks!
Got home and let Daniel and James hang some ornaments I left for them, which they loved.
After supper Daniel and I did Brain Quest, Pucket, and a few secret decoder games.
Now here I sit. I've been stalking deals online all day, but haven't bought much of anything. "Window" shopping is always fun too!
Here's hoping for another good day tomorrow. I start physical therapy in the afternoon and I'm excited that maybe this will help me!
We had a fun time in Iowa this past weekend. I try to cherish every moment I get with my Iowa family...plus they sometimes give me a break from the kiddos!
We had Thanksgiving on Friday and finally got to watch Meet Me in St. Louis again.
On Saturday I went on a couple of errands with Kendra and then watched more Hallmark movies. They are so dang cheesy and sometimes almost painful, and yet they're fun to watch!
Yesterday was an interesting one to say the least. James was crying all the way from my parents house until we were getting near the interstate. He wanted his snack that he saw Mimi put in the bag and I said he needed to wait. Well,...I caved because I was driving and couldn't listen to that the whole time! He wolfed them down and was fine until about a half an hour from our lunch stop. 5 miles before our stop he started to fall asleep so Jacob kept him awake. I pulled into McDonald's and just as I opened James' door, it happened. The puke started flowing. On himself, my Kindle, his car seat and the van seat. I sent Jacob in with him to clean him up and get him changed, while Daniel waited patiently for me to do the best I could cleaning up. Thank goodness I threw a couple of towels in the back the day before!
Lunch went fine. He wasn't super hungry but would eat a little here and there.
We got settled back into the van and switched drivers. Jacob said, "$20 says we'll get stuck in traffic due to an accident" (because this has happened 2 times before.
Wouldn't you know. We were getting close to Springfield when one of the signs on the interstate alerted us of an accident ahead. Just about the same place we've gotten stuck before! I told Jacob to pull off at the rest area because I really needed to go and I knew judging by the tail lights we'd be waiting awhile.
As it turned out there were multiple crashes. 3 cars on one side. 2 on the other. Plus some fender benders. While it was frustrating, my mom pointed out to me that maybe God saved us from another accident. If we hadn't been behind schedule due to James getting sick, we could've been the ones in the accident.
We made it home just after 3:30 and Jacob unloaded the van...and then brought the tree up and all of my bins! As I unpacked, Jacob put the tree up. Listening to James squeal with excitement was priceless.
After unpacking, I had to clean out the car seat and de-puke the van. The rest of the night was a whirlwind of stuff, but thankfully James seemed to be fine.
Today, we were back to the daily grind. Dropped Daniel. Went to Kroger. Came home and put stuff away. Started decorating for Christmas. Lunch. And while James napped I decorated the tree. We he got up, he noticed right away it was decorated and started yelling, "It's like Mimi and Pa's Christmas tree!"
We picked Daniel up and went to the park for an hour. A 64 degree day always means fresh air! We even found 2 painted rocks!
Got home and let Daniel and James hang some ornaments I left for them, which they loved.
After supper Daniel and I did Brain Quest, Pucket, and a few secret decoder games.
Now here I sit. I've been stalking deals online all day, but haven't bought much of anything. "Window" shopping is always fun too!
Here's hoping for another good day tomorrow. I start physical therapy in the afternoon and I'm excited that maybe this will help me!
Friday, November 24, 2017
A Little of This. A Little of That.
I can't believe we've already spent 2 whole days in Iowa already. Tomorrow is the last full day and then we'll head home on Sunday morning.
We had a good time celebrating Daniel (and James) with Mimi, Pa and Aunt Nens. Daniel is now on the road to becoming a photographer with his new Kiddizoom camera. He also got a couple of news games that he loves and James got some fun things as well!
Daniel wanted a Cardinals birthday so Mimi decorated with a red table cloth, a Cards pennant, Cracker Jacks and then had cupcakes with Cardinals rings and a baseball on top. We even had some ballpark food for supper like burgers, hot dogs and fries. So fun!
Kendra and I went out for the start of Black Friday. We are the worst Black Friday shoppers ever. We had no plan. We kinda just go for fun. We got to skip the line at Kohl's because I convinced her to sign up for their charge card. All she had was 2 shirts and a pack of socks. The line was at least an hour long if not longer...so it only made sense! We "jammed" out to a Christmas song in the parking lot of Old Navy and we were rolling over the fact that we were SO off key. We got out and these girls are cracking up and loving that we were jamming in the car. LOL! If they could have only heard the noises that escaped us when we were trying to sing! Target was a mad house. And we went to Gordman's which was basically dead. We decided to head back to the house, and as our grand finale we belted out some Mariah Carey. I love us.
Today was our Thanksgiving. After my grandma had her stroke a few years ago, we've changed up our tradition and do Thanksgiving on Friday so that she's able to come from the assisted living center. I'm still full from lunch, but it sadly didn't stop me from stuffing my face at supper as well.
And tonight after we get the boys to bed we're watching Meet Me In St Louis, which means more snacks, I'm so excited. It's been at least 3 years since I've gotten to watch!
We had a good time celebrating Daniel (and James) with Mimi, Pa and Aunt Nens. Daniel is now on the road to becoming a photographer with his new Kiddizoom camera. He also got a couple of news games that he loves and James got some fun things as well!
Daniel wanted a Cardinals birthday so Mimi decorated with a red table cloth, a Cards pennant, Cracker Jacks and then had cupcakes with Cardinals rings and a baseball on top. We even had some ballpark food for supper like burgers, hot dogs and fries. So fun!
Kendra and I went out for the start of Black Friday. We are the worst Black Friday shoppers ever. We had no plan. We kinda just go for fun. We got to skip the line at Kohl's because I convinced her to sign up for their charge card. All she had was 2 shirts and a pack of socks. The line was at least an hour long if not longer...so it only made sense! We "jammed" out to a Christmas song in the parking lot of Old Navy and we were rolling over the fact that we were SO off key. We got out and these girls are cracking up and loving that we were jamming in the car. LOL! If they could have only heard the noises that escaped us when we were trying to sing! Target was a mad house. And we went to Gordman's which was basically dead. We decided to head back to the house, and as our grand finale we belted out some Mariah Carey. I love us.
Today was our Thanksgiving. After my grandma had her stroke a few years ago, we've changed up our tradition and do Thanksgiving on Friday so that she's able to come from the assisted living center. I'm still full from lunch, but it sadly didn't stop me from stuffing my face at supper as well.
And tonight after we get the boys to bed we're watching Meet Me In St Louis, which means more snacks, I'm so excited. It's been at least 3 years since I've gotten to watch!
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