Thankful Thursday

There are about a million things I could complain about tonight, so I figured it was about time for a Thankful Thursday post.

2020 has sucked...and honestly it's hard to remember the positive things that have happened. There's always something to be thankful for though.

1. I am thankful for my kids. We may drive each other to the brink of insanity daily, but I could not imagine life without them. I never imagined myself being a boy mom after growing up with sisters. Boys are much different, but God knew I was meant to be their mama.

2. I am thankful for a God who will always love me no matter what. I screw up daily. I distance myself. I do and say things I know I shouldn't. While I have struggled in my relationship with God this year, he hasn't left my side. He's been there to whisper reminders in my ear that things would be okay, that he was with me, and that he would carry me if I would just let him. (Don't ask my why I'm so stubborn even when it comes to God. I'm still trying to figure that out.)

3. I am thankful for my home. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would end up divorced. Growing up I had my little fairy tale life planned out. It didn't go that way, but that's okay. It's given me a new chapter. God had this place in mind for me, and it became available just when I needed it. By then end of the weekend that I moved in, it felt like home. As a bonus, I am thankful for my next door neighbor, and my quiet little neighborhood.

4. I am thankful for my job. I know one day it won't be enough income and I will have to move on, but for now and the next few years I am so happy I get to do what I do. I am also thankful that I've been paid even for the times we haven't been able to have school. There are days I am ready to pull my hair out, but watching the kids learn and grow is so worth it.

5. I am thankful that so far (knock on wood), I am the only one to have been super sick this year, and that even though people thought I had Covid, I did not. The boys health is what matters. 

6. I am thankful that I now have actual medical insurance, and I don't have to feel bad about going to be seen. 

7. I am thankful for my church. Between the shut down and getting a divorce, I had a fear that I would feel judged or unwelcome, but no one has made me feel that way. I love getting to sing, and be a part of the family.

8. I am thankful that I have the ability to laugh and find humor in life. Sometimes it's the only thing holding me together, but without laughter life would be so depressing.

9. I am thankful for my family. I know, I already said the boys. But I am thankful for my parents, sisters and extended family. I am especially thankful for my parents and sisters standing beside me, encouraging me, and all of our Facebook chat sessions!

10. I am thankful for my Christmas tree. Okay, I know I keep talking about Christmas, but I swear it feels more magical this year. It's like the last little glimmer of hope in a year that went to hell in a hand basket in March. First of all, have you even stopped to think about how random it is that we all just plop a tree inside our houses? Christmas is just giving me all the feels this year, and I love that I started decorating early because now I have over a month to enjoy it!

There you have it. What are you thankful for?