Crazy Emotions!

Well, the results of my MRI came back fine. I cannot express the level of frustration I was feeling when the nurse told me and even the level of frustration that I feel still. I go back Tuesday to meet with my doctor and discuss what to do next. Everyone means well and keeps suggesting things to me, but I just wish I knew what the exact answer was. I think physical therapy might help, but who knows?

Today my mom had to go home. I felt sad as soon as I woke up. When I went in to take a shower, I cried. Let me tell you...it felt good to cry. I hadn't cried in over 2 months and I usually cry every week or two. I calmed myself down and got dressed, and then Mom ran to Walgreens to grab me a couple of things before she left. She got her hugs and kisses from Daniel and then went to hug me and she was already welling up with tears, which got me going again. Daniel and I waved goodbye as she drove away, and the tears just kept flowing. I told Daniel I was said. He came up on the couch and laid his head next to me and said, "Mommy, sad. Mimi, sad. Baby, sad." Aww. I love that he was feeling compassion.

I was still feeling really down for awhile and was texting Kendra. She called me since she was off work at 11 and we talked for a half an hour. That did wonders for me. I felt so much better after talking to her and having some good laughs. I totally needed that.

You would think over time homesickness would fade away. In some ways it has, and in other ways it hasn't. I cried A LOT in the first year of our marriage because I missed home so badly. Now it comes in waves. Usually around my family comes here or when I leave to come back home from visiting. I'm still feeling a little sad tonight, but it helps knowing that in less than 2 weeks we'll be on our way to Iowa for Thanksgiving.

I spent the afternoon trying to figure out Christmas ideas...and didn't get too far. Daniel took at good nap, and was a happy boy when he got up. Jacob has dress rehearsal tonight, so he hasn't been home since this morning. *Cute side story* He told me this morning before he left he went into Daniel's room and gave Daniel a kiss. Daniel stirred, didn't actually wake up, but whispered, "Daddy." So sweet.

Anyway, I decided to rent a movie, so I got Daniel in the car and went to the Redbox at Walgreens and of course the movie I wanted wasn't in. Thankfully, there's another box at the gas station almost right across the street and they had it. I rented "The Heat". It's probably dumb, but I love Sandra Bullock and Melissa McCarthy.

Daniel and I have hung out and watched Daniel Tiger tonight while he snuggled with me.



Now it's just about time for the little guy to head to bed!

But before I end, I must wish a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to my amazingly beautiful, hilarious, "fastest pooper ever", best friend, Ashley!
I love you lots and I am thankful every single day to have you in my life!