Just One Of Those Days

It wasn't great. It wasn't awful, but there were parts that kinda sucked.

It was all good until I headed into the Y. My 2 little girls who are there almost every day were already there waiting for me at 8:55. By 9:03 I had 10 kids. The twin boys that come are extremely frustrating to me. They whine, cry, throw tantrums, and literally don't understand basic commands. They're 2.5. They should be getting this! Plus it was one of those days were they all stayed forever too!

Whenever I get stressed and annoyed about one thing, I get stressed about everything. I was super annoyed that I have been there for one month and still haven't gotten any of the supplies that I've requested, even though I've filled out exactly what I'm supposed to, to get them. I even handed the paper directly to my supervisor one day and she promised she'd get the stuff for me. I have no cleaning supplies. Ugh. I kinda feel like no one really cares that I'm there anyway. Oh well. I just keep reminding myself it's extra money and it's only a couple of hours a day. Could be worse!

We came home and had our lunch. Well, I had lunch. Daniel threw most of his on the floor. Then I got mad at him. I hate when that happens. My stress caught up to me and I took it out on him by shouting at him. There's a difference between me being stern and then yelling. His little eyes welled up and in that moment I felt like the worst Mommy ever. I know I'm not, but I felt awful. He may only be 1, but on those few occasions where I've gotten upset over something I shouldn't have, I apologize to him. I always want to make sure that I right a wrong with him and our future children.
Thankfully kiddos are resilient and forgiving.

After that we played. Actually...he played. I plopped down on the couch and watched Everybody Loves Raymond to decompress. He kept leaving the room, so I barricaded him in. He's been pretty good at staying in even though he has ways to escape. Well, all of a sudden I realize it's really quiet. I turn around and he catches my eye. He was on the other side of the pack n play (the barricade) and he started giggling and just tears off. It was seriously the funniest moment of my day! It was like he knew he wasn't supposed to be doing that, but he wanted to make sure I caught him!

Then Jacob called to explain his new health insurance plan to me. I ended up getting overly stressed about it. Partly because we had to decide on a plan by tomorrow and mostly because I was hoping with the new plan that Daniel and I could get back on his plan. That turned out to be a no go. But not before I gave myself an anxiety attack about it. Thankfully logic set in after panic. I still think it's a crappy crappy world that we live in, when school districts have to offer insurance that only benefit their employees, but not their families. For Daniel and I to be on his plan it would be twice the cost of our monthly mortgage payment! Um... So yeah. Sticking with what we have and hoping to switch back to Blue Cross possibly on our own plan in the next few months if I can go meet with an agent. Weirdly the online quote I got for nearly the same plan that I could get through the school is half of the cost.

The evening was better thankfully. I should probably go to bed since I was falling asleep an hour ago, and I'm still up.

This picture pretty much sums up my life though.