Confessions of a New Mommy

I thought it would be fun to make a list of my confessions of being a new parent.

* I always thought it was lame when people got induced and didn't wait to go naturally. I also thought getting an epidural was a cop out because my mom had all 3 of us without pain meds. I was wrong on both counts. I had a great induction experience and once my epidural worked I had absolutely no regrets.

*I always thought that breastfeeding would be easy. I LOVE being able to feed my little boy and bond. He drinks like a champ, but I had no clue how painful and messy it could be! Not to mention I have a hungry little boy, so there are times that I feel like I am constantly feeding.

*On the other hand I am proud that I can breastfeed him and know that I am helping him grow. His birth weight was 8 lbs, 4 oz. 5 days after birth his weight was 7 lbs. 11.5 oz. Yesterday at 2 weeks old he weighed in at 8 lbs 6 oz! He even graduated out of his Newborn diapers and is wearing Size 1! Now if only I could get him to stop spitting up!

*I always said my babies would sleep in their own crib from day one. I did attempt it the first night, but by 3:00AM I gave up and he's been in a bouncy seat next to me all night long. He hates his crib, but I'm working on slowly trying to get him to nap in there sometimes, although our longest stretch has been 15 minutes. I don't want him in our room forever, but at the same time I like knowing he's right there next to me and I can hear him breathing.

*We agreed no pacifiers. I almost caved twice. Thankfully Jacob held me back. There are times that Daniel is wailing and it would be nice to "plug it up", but I'm glad that we've stuck to our choice.

*I dread bedtime. I dread it more for me because it's hard to wake up after I've only been asleep for an hour and a half or two hours. Daniel is a little night owl. Once he's up to eat I have a very hard time getting him back to sleep. Sometimes it takes almost an hour and I know he'll be back up to eat again soon.

*At the same time...once I'm actually awake, I enjoy those feedings. Not in a, "Oh yay!!! I'm so happy that I'm awake to feed the little guy again", kind of way, but I want to cherish these moments. My baby is already 2 weeks old. I love those bonding moments. I love when he's finally drifting off to sleep in my arms. He rolls his little eyes all over the place and he ALWAYS smiles involuntarily every time he's falling asleep. It seriously melts my heart.

*Watching Jacob and Daniel bond is seriously just about the cutest thing ever. Daniel loves when daddy sings to him and it makes me love both of them even more than I already do.

*I could sit and watch Daniel all day long. I've memorized all of his little features and mannerisms. I'm learning when he wiggles and fusses that he has a burp trapped in him. I love when he wrinkles up his forehead because he looks like a little old man. He loves to play with his fingers and try to eat them.  He turns his head when he hears one of our voices. And even though he technically can't smile yet...I swear he does sometimes. I can see it in his eyes.

*I can finally be one of those biased mommies and say that I have the cutest baby in the world.

*I would give up anything for my little boy. He means the world to me.

*I love him more than I ever knew that I could love.