Here I Go Again

I'm in the mindset to lose weight. It's been building for awhile now, but until I could actually convince myself to do something about it I continued eating.

I am the ultimate excuse maker. I can come up with an excuse for anything. I put it off, but now it's time. I've really packed on the pounds. Especially after getting married. Now it's time to "re-train" my body again. It has to be about portion control, self control and exercise.

I'm trying to come up with some healthy things to eat. I'm going to attempt the low calorie thing again because it worked for me before. If I remember right, the first week is the hardest. The hardest part is getting my stomach to stop growling every 2 seconds and coming up with low calorie snacks to eat. I really don't want the 100 Calorie packs again. It does help portion control, but some of those things taste like cardboard and they're expensive.

I bought a little bit of fresh fruit today and I'm hoping I can get myself into the habit of eating it. In fact, I had an apple at supper tonight.

I told Jacob a few days ago that I knew I needed to start walking again...and I would once it wasn't 100 degrees outside. He then reminded me that I was making an excuse. Dang. Busted. I found my MP3 player yesterday and charged it. I told Jacob before I went to bed last night that no matter what he HAD to make me go on a walk today...the only exception would be if it was storming.

Despite the heat...which wasn't too bad, I walked for 35 minutes. Not sure how far I walked, but it felt good.  Then I came home and did crunches just like I used to do.

I would like to lose 20 pounds, but I'm making my initial goal 15 pounds. At that point I think I could comfortably fit into my old jeans. I also have another rule. No DQ (or any ice cream) until I lose 10 pounds. Good incentive. Another goal is to drop that weight in 3 months. I've done it before, so here's hoping!

I know I'm not fat, but I also know that my clothes do not fit right and I'm not feeling that great about myself.  I think it's guilt. My options were either buy new clothes or lose weight to fit back into my own clothes. I started crying thinking about getting rid of some of my favorite outfits, so losing weight seems like the right thing to do!

I'm praying for God to provide me with willpower and to help me resist temptation (because I'm very good at caving).

I have to find a way to still workout this week. We have VBS from 6-8 each night. If I can manage to get off work early this week like I did last week it should be no problem...but I have to stick with this!